I really didn’t make an official New Year’s resolution list this year; you know, writing down things on a list and then squirreling it away somewhere where you hope you won’t find it anytime soon. That’s not to say that I didn’t feel the need; I did, but nothing was pushing me to go through the standard ceremony.
One of the things I want to do for 2016 is to be awake. I can hear the one-liners already! I don’t mean that! I mean that I want to be more present and receptive rather distracted and mono-focused.
I am finding that prayer and meditation helps with this. Nearly each morning I engage in some type of spiritual focus for about an hour. I do this very early so that I still have my entire day for other activities. This almost always involves meditation, prayer and reading cards. Sometimes I read, view a video or listen to a podcast. This has been immensely helpful in whatever I want to focus on and it’s helped make me a really good tarot and oracle card reader.
I usually walk for two to five miles three times a week. I have a standard loop through a local park that gives me lots of nature to view rather than track homes. Since my New Year’s resolution, I’ve focused on being especially awake and receptive during my walks. This morning I saw a fox, a very large fox. At first I thought it was a coyote because of its size. This wouldn’t have been too unusual, but it was too low, the wrong color and had a huge bushy tail. It ignored me and ran through the exit of the park. I could feel my heart racing with a bit of fear and a two bits of a feeling of having been touched by the Other. I left the park on route to a second, smaller park. As I left, the fox came running around a corner into my view and stopped. I stopped too as we came face to face. We both looked at each other for a moment and then it ran off taking a loop around me back to the larger park. I wasn’t so full of fear this time, but felt more confused.
I thought that this encounter must carry special meaning, especially in my receptive state. I started to wrack my brains with associations – the trickster of native American legend? No that’s Coyote or does that include foxes? Was his color important? What tarot card would he represent? Had I startled him or had he sought me out. Was he trying to tell me something? I paused. I remembered my resolution as my machine mind churned through its usual process of trying to box up and define everything. I slowed my mental process and opened up. What the encounter meant was that a fox and I had become acquainted.
Later, I chose two decks to explore this encounter and perhaps add some information. I chose the decks because of their sensitivity to nature – the Sustain Yourself Oracle Cards and the Wild Unknown Tarot. Here is my spread and the message I received:
Winter contracts and life seems to slow. Don’t be misled.
Wildness is always present and doesn’t sleep.
Look into her face and know part of yourself.
She is not humbled by seasons or structures.
Her appearance is not organized or expected, but she is always present.
Acknowledge her or you will lose your way and your spring will not come.
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